Reality

WTF is the world against me?

TMD. I posted a long entry and its not saved. WTH LOR.

I was just saying how shitty i felt and there, it happened again.

*THIS IS ANOTHER EMO ENTRY ABOUT FRIENDS. I'm a useless bum!*

YES. I Felt like shit the entire morning and last night. I hate to pretend i'm happy and refrain from crying. I had to because people around me don't know! I cant tell them because they will think I'm thinking too much.

Thanks to Jo, Kris, Lindy, teck and ray for comforting, and ray got scolded too.

Most importantly, loo slapped me out of the dreamland. No more sad tears for unworthy people. Instead of consoling me, she knocked some sense out of my empty head, drowning me with facts of reality which I already knew. But just not accepting them.

She spent more than 30mins on MSN chatting with me, giving me her full attention with response time of 3seconds, even when her company is strict about using MSN in office (she hardly uses it!).

And this, is what made me realise what and who is worth the effort and time.

It's not about people who completely ignores you from outing yet still blames you for not turning up when they dun even include u. Not about people who doesnt give a damn about chatting with you or bothered to catch up and just merely giving short ans and close ended ones.

Its obvious, such people dont give a shit about you.

But rather, people who goes missing for a year and still appear beside you when you are in your worst time, are truly people who cared and worth keeping.

With that, I just felt really touched that I teared a drop infront of the screen. And loo makes me blood boil at the same time, by asking me to take a picture of me tearing to prove it.

Thanks to eveyrone who reads and cares. I may not be a good friend, but least I've tried. Please tell me straight about things you're unhappy about and not avoid me without a reason.

Maybe i should follow the guys motto;

"HUH? WHAT OUTING? WHO SAY WHAT? AIYA..DON"T CARE LA!"