Green eye monster

I'm strangely jealous over little things.

Not jealous because my boyfriend speaks to another girl or something. In fact, nothing to do with love at all. I'm just jealous about everything ELSE.

I'm just in a peeve about everything.

I hate it when a friend becomes closer to another friend; I hate it when my friend gets distracted when I'm talking to her/him. I hate it when I'm last to know something; I hate it when i'm left out for certain outings; I hate it when people don't even bother to ask; I hate it when people assume that I'm busy; I hate it when people assume I don't care; I hate it when my best friend found another best friend; I hate it when I don't get to choose; I hate it when I'm asked to do everything instead of someone else who could have done it too; I hate it when i've done so much yet that person doesnt appreciate AND WORSE, praise someone else instead; I hate it when people tell me bullshit theories about life when they themselve do otherwise; I hate it when 2 people commit a similar mistake, only one takes the blame and the other walks away; I hate it when people are doing something more for someone else than me (among friends).

Not that all of that happened in a day. But just one thing that link these thoughts together. And i'm not referring to anyone in particular.

I just like to be appreciated and be part of people's life. Not a major one, but least I exist and is enough to mean something to you. I really really hated to be left out. To be assumed. I hate to be the last to know things.

Maybe, i'm just really not that NICE. I'm not a 'fun kind of person you won't want to miss out'.

What can be done to keep someone by your side? Be it a colleague, an acquaintence, a friend, a love one. How long can I keep? HOw much is enough?

I hate to be alone. The world suddenly seemed so far away. I feel like I've been shunned away. Avoided. Secretly left behind.

Ok. Whatever I've mentioned in bold, could be things I've done to. I'm just...feeling... alone.

ALONE...

*REPLY: TLM - No la. I said after the exercise, i FELT like i've lost weight. I also added (I wished) behind ma... ha.. I didnt say I reallly did lose weight..