I've made up my mind on a decision 3wks ago and no matter what obstacles come along the way, I've found a solution or compromise with it. However, now i'm forced to make an alternate decision just because there's no other way unless both of us agree on the same decision. Every little new obstacle just deters him much more, leaving me the only one fighting for it.. I have to persuade everyone all the pros and cons of it, how it may not be the greatest value but it'd something that appreciates overtime. I strongly believe it would be worth it.
But its useless when no one stands on the same line with me I'm hapless, tired and extremely disappointed, because i've been struggling for so long with short moments of jubilance and joy, followed by hours of heartache and disappointment because he wasn't firm on what he wants. He's easily swayed and very fickle minded.
What's the point of settling on something we both are not convinced enough to buy? I know deep inside, my words and feelings to him weigh nothing more than a feather, yet joint comments from any one else enough to confirm his doubts. It's no longer our decision.. It's decision based on what everyone wants.
Over this,i've lost sleep and went through hurricane of emotions. For once i was very sure what i wanted, so much so i'm willing to fight for it and ignore everyone else's opinion. At this point, think i've had enough.
I give up...
I know i'd never find something i've had so much faith and conviction, knowing that we'll triumph over the worse storm because we had each other. Now? I'm no longer sure, i just want to give up the search because honestly, there is no perfect timing for something. Or
we'll just have to wait till HE THINKS its a good time..which we all will never know when it's coming..
I just know, this will be my biggest regret in my life. Ever.
3 comments:
hmm if im not wrong, shld be ur house hunt you're talking about?
ah yeoyeo, dont lose faith and conviction in finding a place for the both of you.
there'll be obstacles that stands along the way, i.e. disagreements and inputs from the outsiders.
but do give both of yourself time, im sure things will turn out the fine the way it shld be.
i know what it feels when there's no other way around a decision, unless both agrees to it. but trust me on this, take the time to talk things out.
what the both of you wants, what you can accept and what you cant. and then finding a way to compromise around it.
hope things work out for you. do cheer up yah!(i hope it aint on the wrong topic.)
heya, go for what you guys like man! Why bother pleasing everyone when you cannot please yourself?
If you buy already and you regret, at least u have a worthy time regretting. If you bought something in which you do not like at first because everyone asks u to, u will regret totally... isn't it true?
Follow where your heart wants u to do. You never go wrong with it. Been through it, done it, regretted it, enjoyed it. :p
Dear Jan, after reading this post i realised we have in fact many things or rather troubles in comman. Shall we meet up soon? I may be a bit of help i hope... cheer up!
Cindy Fam :)
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